Honestly....nothing much to say. Oh, Elly says, finally, that she willl do the bonding when we are ready. It feels strange, though, to think of planning a bonding for myself. I've talked to Will almost everyday, and am so glad he's come back. Even if he doesn't take care of himself! I've leveled, Skiff's leveled...I have nothing to talk about.

Everyone kept telling me, reassuring me, that if I became an officer, nothing would have to change. I could be a silly rogue still, the spoiled little sis...yet, inside for me, it changes. How can I demand respect, when I myself don't feel like I deserve it? Its just a title, nothing more. Yet, people would try to make more of it. Heck, after some of my friends found out, they wanted a party!! All for something I didn't really want, but felt honored to do. I enjoy it.....I actually do, to my surprise. I like helping out Sis when there is a problem, or trying to organize something...but, it seems that there just isn't enough other people around who want to help, too. Maybe I'm just being silly. Or, maybe I'm right. Who knows?

It feels as though we are slowly crumbling though, the guild. Two more have now left, since Amzer...Nas and Spyne....its silly really though, that I find myself talking more to Nas now that she isn't in the guild, than I did while she was!! Maybe its because, you can just feel overwhelmed by everyone talking in our guild group, and not want to speak out...? I really hope the guild stays together, though...they are the only family I ever really had. Maybe, if I just try harder, I'll keep anyone else from wanting to leave. I have a lot of maybe's today....

And, here's one more even...Maybe I'll write again later!

I really shoulda known, with what Val and Bowz and they all said, that they wouldn't give up! No matter how many times I told them, that there was far more worthier prospects, did they believe a word? Of course not!! And then Shawna, being all mysterious..."Skye, come on, follow me"
Hmph, sneaky bunch...and, I thought we didn't have enough rogues?!? Well, its over and done with now...but, I only did it cause Shawna really needed the help!!!

**pins an shiny new officers patch to the outside of her cloak with a scowl*

Waiting....waiting....is all I seem to do.

Wait at the LM, til my confuzzled head is ready to go out and take another blow, wait for someone to bring the TB's to me, wait...for Skiff to come back. Why hasn't he come back? He should have been back by now...I'll keep waiting...for all these things, but I feel like a part of me keeps slipping away with every passing marc. And, there is no one to turn to.

Bowz and Val are intent on getting me to train...Bowz constantly pestering me about the newest armor to put in the rogue armory, or giving me soup...nasty soup!! Maybe its good, to just mind-numbingly go off to train...but, I'm tired of it! I never like training anyway...and, I don't see why I have to become so much stronger. I'm not a good fighter anyway...whats the point? Can't I just do what I do, fight the lesser demons, defend the smaller towns? Is there something wrong with that, because, I don't see it...if everyone was so much stronger, then all the demons would come and raid, then flee when everyone showed up! No one would be able to slay them, and they would continue to hit and run.....Maybe I'm just finding an excuse to be lazy, who knows....

Well, finally reached 31...took me long enough, but I did it! I also finally got my nice shimmery cloak...though, I find it a bit too flashy for a rogue. I mean, how can I sneak around with that glittering thing giving me away?!?

I've felt...strange, lately. I feel like I'm drawing away from people I once talked to all the time. I find myself...tired of it all, of everything that happens, day after day, over and over, the same things repeated. I guess thats why I've decided to train so much lately. Its easy to fall into the pattern, and just forget everyone else. Honestly, there is nothing wrong with me! But, I just feel myself drawing farther and farther away...except for the guild, of course. Despite how infuriating all my guild brothers are...I would give my right arm to keep them by my side forever. And, for my guild sisters...they are the family I always wanted, when I was an orphan. I could never be alone, because they are always around. I do miss Skiff though, but, I know he will come back soon, and I will be here to welcome him with open arms when he does.

I have actually been trying to train!! Amazing, isn't it?!? Well, lazy as I am, I thought I ought to try a bit harder to make myself stronger. After that raid at the castle, I realized I really ought to be stronger, so I can help fight without getting knocked out! So, off I went to the Wastelands.

But, Bowz sent me a message about armor-he wanted ME to look after the rogues armor?!? And, after the whole escapade with the warriors armory! I thought he was just joking...but, he was serious. Its kinda exciting, actually-I set up a place in the alleyway where the rogues in the guild can go to get items they might not be able to afford. I rather like running it!!

Oh, and I hope no one notices...but, I got bored when I was waiting in the tavern at the guildhall and idly started carving into the bartop!!!